First Christmas without You

It’s our very first Christmas without you,
I feel I can hardly breathe,
But these days that’s not so unusual,
Since the day you decided to leave.

I look at my favourite photo,
And the candle we light, just for you,
Wondering if you can see us,
Wondering what we should do?

Others are busy out shopping,
For gifts to go under the tree,
The joy on their faces rips at my heart,
When you should be right here with me.

I wander the shops with my watery eyes,
Just moving around in a daze,
Trying to find the most perfect thing
To lay at your new resting place.

There’s a new Christmas ornament now on the tree,
It’s bearing your name, and your wings,
Though we didn’t put lights on the house this year,
Dad was too sad for these things.

People around us are happy,
So we try to be happy too,
But inside our hearts are breaking apart,
The one thing that’s missing, is you.

We visited where you are sleeping,
Left tinsel, to show that we care,
As well as a beautiful angel,
To look after you while we’re not there.

Your buddies have been out to see you,
They too, have left gifts of love,
A cap, some trinkets, a bottle of beer,
We can feel your smile from above.

Now there’s one empty chair at the table,
One less Bon-Bon that’s going to be popped,
Everything’s changed, nothing’s the same,
Since the day our universe stopped.

It’s our very first Christmas without you,
The first of many to come,
So we’ll raise our glass to the heavens,
We miss you, our beautiful son.